The last week has been really tough.
I spoke with the brain doctor last Monday and I talked to him more directly about things than I ever have before. I didn't feel good about it either, but it had to be done so I could reach for a place to start.
The next day, and for the rest of the week, I almost couldn't get out of bed. There has been a block in my mind, making it muddy, and a pressure on my lungs, trying to make my body collapse in on itself.
Before I saw the doctor I was keeping everything sealed inside, but since seeing the doctor the seal has been broken and stuff keeps leaking out. Hopefully the seal will get back into place soon.