The hardest thing, for me, about going to the brain doctor is telling the whole truth about how I feel to him.
When most regular people ask how you're feeling, they don't really care or want a real answer. They just us it as a greeting because it has more words than "hello" and makes it seem like they care. There's no reason to tell the truth to them. A noncommittal "okay" is all they need and they'll interpret that one word however they want to.
The brain doctor may not personally care, but it's his job to help and he can't help unless I give him a real answer. And since I want to get better I have to say more than "okay" when he asks how I'm doing. My instinct is to say "okay" and it's hard to break a decades long habit.
I'm trying, though.