Have you ever had a moment of realization where you know, KNOW, something, good or bad or neutral, with complete and utter certainty? How did you feel? Relieved? Good? Bad? Confused?
I had one, a neutral one, about forty or fifty minutes ago while responding to an e-mail from my brother.
I've been awash with a million variation of nearly every emotion since then. It's almost overwhelming. My head feels stuffed with cotton or wool.
It's doubtful that anything good will come and I'm not sure if knowing is good. It's just what it is.